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愛，不輕許。
                                                                               
你以為愛情是什麼？
                                                                               
        

                                                                      
那天聚會，
                                                                               
朋友帶了她的朋友來參加，
                                                                               
忽然間你發現，
                                                                               
她的談話，她的舉止，
                                                                               
都是你想像中的那樣。
                                                                               
你曾夢想過有一天，
                                                                               
當你戀愛，
                                                                               
你的她，是這麼個樣。
                                                                               
似乎她一笑，

你就神魂顛倒，
                                                                               
所以你靠近她，
                                                                               
跟她講話，
                                                                               
拉東扯西，
                                                                               
只希望再看她笑一下。
      
                                                                        
                                                                               
漸漸的，你有活動都會想找她，
                                                                               
千方百計的想約她，
                                                                               
她的出現，讓你心跳加速，
                                                                               
她的失約，讓你搥胸頓足。
   
                                                                           
                                                                               
你問到了她的電話，
                                                                               
開始嘗試找她談天，

聊生活，聊學業，聊興趣，聊看法，
                                                                               
無所不用其極的修飾自己的遣詞用句，
                                                                               
只為了給一個好印象，
                                                                               
甚至營造兩人很合得來的假象。
                                                                               
                                                                               
  
                                                                            
                                                                               
配合她的興趣，你開始改變自己，
                                                                               
陪她看畫展，陪她喝咖啡，
                                                                               
陪她看電影，陪她去逛街，
                                                                               
想盡辦法提高見面的頻率，
                                                                               
因為你看不到她，
                                                                               
你會茶不思飯不想的心煩意亂。

                                                                               
你們熟悉了，
                                                                               
開始你找她，她找你，
                                                                               
在看電影時，你會想碰碰她的手，
                                                                               
排隊時，你會想拉拉她的肩，
                                                                               
喝咖啡時，你開始找一些親暱的話題，
                                                                               
用餐時，你會想切塊牛肉用你的叉子餵給她吃，
                                                                               
逛街時口渴買飲料，你會希望她喝不完而跟你共享一杯奶茶。
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                             

再來你學會，
                                                                               
心情不好時故意給她看到，
                                                                               
讓她看到你皺起的眉頭，
                                                                               
看到你眼神的落寞，
                                                                               
並期待她能主動關心問候。
                                                                               
因此，你們開始交換心事，
                                                                               
開心時共享，傷心時互相安慰，
                                                                               
在適當的時候，
                                                                               
你瞭解了她的個性與想法，
                                                                               
清楚了她的脆弱與堅強。
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                        
哪天，你故意引她傷心或動心，
                                                                               
製造了浪漫的機會，
                                                                               
夜裡的星空下，
                                                                               
你們相擁，
                                                                               
感受來自她的體溫，
                                                                               
甚至她髮尾的香味。
                                                                               
情不自禁，你用手撫去她的淚痕，
                                                                               
當她抬頭望了你一眼，
                                                                               
看著她眼裡殘存的淚光，
                                                                               
用手輕碰她的臉頰，
                         
你會告訴她，你喜歡她，
                                                                               
你將手劃過她的臉際，
                                                                               
托起她的下巴，
                                                                               
輕輕的吻了她。
                   


                                                             
                                                                               
你以為愛情是什麼？
                                                                               
一點點的動心，
                                                                               
一點點的衝動，
                                                                               
一個擁抱一個吻？
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
天真的朋友們，

日劇看太多了，
                                                                               
痞子蔡的文章看太多了。
                                                                               
這也許是愛情的一部分，
                                                                               
但絕對不是大部分。
                                                                               
愛情的主體是生活，
                                                                               
一起生活。
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
你能陪她一時的難過，
                                                                               
你能陪她所有的壓力？
                                                                                                      
你能給生活的方向？
                                                                                
                                                                                
                     
                                                           
                                                                               
你可曾想像當熱情褪去，
                                                                              
擁抱對你已經沒任何吸引力，

你們如何走下去？








天真的朋友，

愛，絕對不是缺了就找，

更不是累了就換。

你不能怪她中途抽身，

因為她在愛中看不到生活。



生活，才是愛情的目的，

這裡的生活不是一個人好好活，

是兩個人如何一起好好過。




愛，不輕許。

你以為愛情是什麼呢？